The most awful thing is to stare at images of human organs
               diseased or otherwise
               and taste the similarity to morsels of fatty steak
               with just the eyes
I went through a portfolio
of cystic and solid neoplasms
until all I saw were bits of good hamburger meat
  - glistening jewels of fat next to juicy bits
           mouth slavering
                       but then confused and disgusted when
                             standing up
                          I felt the meat inside me
                          squeeze together
                      and my body turning to sausage
                     and imagined holding my mother's pancreas
                        just another sweet meat
                          pathetic in cold air
                              a primitive ugliness
                              deranged by tears